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May 20, 2006
11:01 pm
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i'm a senior.....holy crap
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February 18, 2006
9:18 pm
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[ mood | Frigid ]

It's been like forever since I updated this stupid thing so I decided I would update! Basketball is over with! It was sad....kind of. I was sad to see the seniors on their last game ever. And then where I'm not going to play next year, it's sad because of Nemo! I love Nemo to death! She was my valentine! Haha! Anyways..... I have a job! That excited me! I was hired at the first place I applied! I've only worked twice so far, but I love it! Today was Forensics competition! I didn't place, in fact I did horrible, but the team as a whole placed second! So that was great! I really liked doing Forensics I just was not prepared fully. So I think I'm going to participate in it next year so I will practice really hard and be prepared next year! FBLA competitions are Monday! I need to study my material but I just can't seem to find the time! Oh well, the category I'm in is not hard and I'm a pretty smart kid so I think I can handle it. I've found two prom dresses that I like so sometime I will go and get one. When? I don't know but I will figure that out later! However, what I need to be working on is a prom date! I had one in mind but he has another date so that kind of SUCKS! I think I need to find a boy toy. I'm not sure though if I want one because where I never have time to do ANYTHING. But I do get lonely sometimes.  I have feelings for this one guy but I just don't think he's interested that way or if he is he doesn't want to date. I really don't know though. But I guess this enough to last for a while! I really don't like updating this because nosy people read it and I really don't like nosy people! However, I don't want to make it friends only because I just don't like friends only! But I do like comments!

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January 13, 2006
11:14 pm
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[ mood | blank ]

Time for my monthly update! We are 5th in the district! That's great considering we were predicted to be 8th! There is only like four more weeks left. This semester is supposed to be my easy one. But so far it hasn't been and we have only been a week. I've had more homework than I can handle. This weekend I am loaded down with History and English and somewhere in between the homework and the basketball practice I am supposed to study for the SAT, which I am taking the 28th! I have a feeling that the next few months will be stressful! I will have prom to deal with, FBLA competitions and then state and then I will have the senior tea to prepare for! I will be very very busy. Also, I am getting a job as soon as basketball is over with. But the problem with that is I don't know where I'm going to get one. Im sick right now as usual. There is something wrong with my ovaries. I have to go to the doctor next week and the week after that! It sucks because I will have make-up time this six-weeks. But thinking about all this is making me stressed out!


<3

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December 30, 2005
9:52 pm
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[ mood | stressed ]

Well since LJ starts nothing by drama then I think one update a month will be sufficient enough! The boy in my last entry is definately not Shawn Austin! Just so people will not be confused!

i <3 you!

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December 27, 2005
9:53 pm
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[ mood | good ]

We lost tonight by one point. That stinks. It really does. We played really well, we should have won.  The refs weren't that great but that happens most of the time.  We don't have practice tomorrow so I can sleep late. That's always exciting.  We play St. Paul Friday.  We are going to go prepared. So, there's this guy and I want to tell him but I don't think I can because what if he just laughs at me. We fight but I don't know. No one knows

 

Read this thing, it's long but it really says something

 


 

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December 23, 2005
8:31 pm
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[ mood | cold ]

Christmas is in two days and it really doesn't feel like it. It's just doesn't feel like it used to. I don't know, but what I do know is that the first semester is over with and I couldn't be happier.  I was tired of all those classes and seeing all the same people.  Of course next semester I will see most of those people again. It just gets old. But the next year and a half will fly by.  Basketball is basketball. We seem to be on a losing streak. But hopefully we will come out of it soon because it really gets me pissed and down in the dumps just like the rest of the team.  I guess we just have to keep working harder and harder and we will get there eventually.  As for the whole guy thing, well I think I'm just going to forget them for a while because so far I haven't found one worth wasting my time on. They all turn out to be the same, immature.  I guess I will just have to find a much older guy. And then there's the whole friends thing. I don't really have a close close friend that's a girl besides Courtney, but she really doesn't count because she lives with me.  I want one that's like my sister but not. But I guess I will find that later in life.  Who knows? Definately not me.  Ahh sometimes I just don't know about life

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December 4, 2005
11:36 pm
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You know what....I'm through!
I'm out of here in a year and that's it! No more of anyone!
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November 22, 2005
9:43 pm
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[ mood | pissed off ]

From now on out whenever I find the time to update my journal it will be friends only! I'm tired of little twits reading it and running their mouth! I'm going to go through my friends list and maybe delete some people!




=)

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November 19, 2005
7:43 pm
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[ mood | quixotic ]

Well, well ,well......

Life is definately interesting and has definately changed within the last couple of months! Some of it's better and some of it's not. I hate that I'm losing him over her. It hurts deep down. It happens though, it really does and I guess I'm just going to have to face the fact that everything that we had is just gone. And to think that what I wild time we would have had in college together but I guess it's not going to happen now. I might be being selfish but before it was just you and me and that's how I want it to be....always.  What happened to the as long as we have each other, or I got you babe? It's evident you don't need me now and I'm slowly accepting that.

 

However, life in general (besides that) is going great! I'm tired and worn out from basketball with the combination of school, but I love it. What more can I say? Right now I am injured. I don't know how I did it but my ankle is swollen and ugly. If it doesn't get better I'm going to go to the doctor Monday morning. I have an above 100 average in Calculus and that's great. Although this six weeks my Chemistry grade is dropping. That's not great! We only go two days next week..it's a much needed break. I just can't wait for Christmas break! Maybe next year will just be so much better. I'm hoping anyways! But as for now I'm just going to wait for the best and see what happens

 

 

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November 13, 2005
5:54 pm
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Friends only update!

 

 

 

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once again......random [
November 2, 2005
8:09 pm
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[ mood | weird ]

........maybe we are meant to be together. But who's keeping us apart? I know it's not me. Think about it........

I was thinking about updating my journal but as I sit here and think I really don't know what to say.  I'm thinking about making my journal friends only again because there are certain people out there who like to read things that I write and either go and repeat them to someone else or repeat the wrong thing to someone else.  I mean how childish is that!  I'm not in a good mood. I've not been all week. I guess it's because a.) I'm on my period and have been for two weeks b.)Brittany has not been at school to cheer me up =( (but I do hope she gets to feeling better) c.) I'm angry because I have realized something and now it's too late d.) I'm sore from basketball because we end up doing fun runs because retarted people are attempting to play. But I guess that's all that's been wrong. Last night I stayed up till around 1 doing my homework and studying. I fell asleep studying or I would have studied longer. And each day this week I have fallen asleep in AP History.  I'm beginning to despise history.  I mean seriously! I could care less what happened in the past. I'm only looking to the future to get away from this town, the people, and the immaturity.  I know everywhere I go there will be people like here in Coeburn but at least it will not be as bad as Coeburn or Wise County.  People at the high school level are just ignorant.  They are dumb and immature.  I can't stand it. That's why anymore I just associate with my real friends.  I know Nick and I fight a lot but I guess that's how we know that we love each other, but we haven't fought in about a week so I guess we are progressing in our friendship! I mean everyone is immature at times but there are some people who are immature ALL the time and those people better not get around me! My birthday is in exactly 6 days! I'm super excited. And the best part is we are out of school for my birthday! Yay! I think Monday night at 12 Courtney and Me are going to go eat at the Huddle House and his weekend the family is going out to eat.  Last Friday night after the game and dance a bunch of us went to see the midnight showing of Saw II. It was fun but I really didn't think that it was scary it was just gross. Really gross. I guess I need to be finding a date to the Christmas Dance which sucks because if I do not have a date I will not go. I already have my outfit and everything but no date.  I had planned on taking my boyfriend but do you see a boyfriend at the time? No! Why? Because I really don't know why! I need to find me a man.  Not a boy but a man around 20 or something like that! I'm way too mature for the boys.! ;) Well I guess I have ranted and raved long enough........

 

<3

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October 17, 2005
7:02 pm
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[ mood | chipper ]

Life's like photography, you use the negatives to develop

Well.......life sure is interesting.  It can change in just the blink of an eye! But I am much happier now! I would say that I will stay away from guys for  like forever but I know that in a couple of weeks or a month I will have me another one come around! I just know that I will NEVER I mean NEVER date anyone from Powell Valley again! Never! I'm through with that junk! Haha! Im doing really well in school except AP history is kind of kicking my butt, but I will be O.K.! This Friday I think I'm going to go to the Wise and Clintwood game with Em....maybe! And then Saturday I'm going out! Yay! I love my life! Oh and I absolutely love me! ;)

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September 25, 2005
7:55 pm
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[ mood | happy ]

I hate to admit it....I have a bad habit & baby, it's you!

 

I was going to update but I really don't have anything to update about! Shawn and I are doing great! Couldn't get any better! I miss him terribly and I just saw him yesterday! =) School's getting better! I made a B in AP History and it pisses me off because I wanted an A and I was only two points away! Ewww..... But overall I'm a happy kid!

 

<3

o9.12.o5

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September 15, 2005
7:17 pm
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[ mood | content ]

You are right-I'm not as good as you, I’m better.

 

School sucks. Like seriously! I'm either going to drop out or commit suicide! Studying for like three hours each night is killing me! NEVER in my life have I like ever studied before! I'm doing good in Calculus though! But that's about the only thing! Chemistry is like the hardest thing ever! And it's like 21324864321657654 degrees in that room! One of these days Im going to die! We got our yearbooks today! They are really,really,really ugly! It was definately not worth the $45 I paid for it. But it did get me out of AP history and that is definately GREAT! Brittany wasn't at school today and I was really lonely! Haha! I hope she isn't sick or anything becasue that would like be really bad. I do have homework tonight but Im really not in the mood to do it! Im really not in the mood to do anything! I don't know what my problem is! Homecoming will be here soon and I'm like SUPER excited! I can't wait!  The SCA executives met today after school and discussed it!! We need to work on our float like really bad because I'm not going to do it the week of homecoming because I will be really really really busy! So I guess here later I will have to call Nick about it even though I have told him like three times in the last week! Anyways, Shawn and I are dating now! I think Im going to go with him to the football game tomorrrow if the parentals will let me! I hope that I can go!

 

-brooke

 

o9.12.o5

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September 5, 2005
3:35 pm
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[ mood | crazy ]

maybe letting you go was a mistake that should have never been made

Well! What to say? I don't know? Court and I went to Gate City the other night to watch the football game! We suck! We lost big time. It really wasn't worth it to waste the gas to go over there but then again it was because I got to see Chels and Heather and Haley. So I guess it was! Haha! Court and I had an interesting time driving back! It was definately funny! Lets just say it's a good thing that I don't have my own car because I CAN NOT drive! Haha! But it was fun anyways! I love Courtney to death! I want a car but not really because I don't like to drive. I have been thinking lately of what I want my career to be when I get out of school and I've been thinking between a psychologist, FBI agent or a plastic surgeon! Haha! Im crazy! Oh well! I have been trying to figure out this stupid history homework and I just don't get it! Oh well!

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August 30, 2005
7:00 pm
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[ mood | curious ]

never regret anything you have ever done because at one point it was exactly what you wanted

Wow...... what to say? I quit PACE because it was really really hard this year. I'm going to play basketball. I'm excited! I think I have me a guy......maybe! Oh well I'm done updating because I do not want to type anymore.

 

 

<3 you and everything about you

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August 24, 2005
6:58 pm
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[ mood | crazy ]

the biggest mistake "you" ever made was to let me go.........just think about it

Well....... what can I say. There isn't much to update about because nothing ever exciting happens in the life of brooke!  We got our class rings today! Mine is super cute and unique! I was excited to get mine! Oh and I have finally learned to let go of my past. I'm so tired of dwelling in it. Thinking how things would be different if I hadn't done some things, or wishing how I could go back and re-do most things.  But I made mistakes, everyone does, and we all learn from our mistakes. But it would be cool if we could go back in time. I need to find me some friends. I know I have them but I mean ones where I'm close to, hang out with all the time, the ones that you can tell anything to and them not judge you, the ones where you can laugh for hours about absolutely nothing! I also need me a guy.... a good one! The last boy toy I had was a complete and total DUD! He was so fake about everything, immature, stupid, didn't know how to act in a relationship! But the day he lied to me about putting our ignorant relationship on hold was the most stupid thing he has done in his entire life! But I need me a guy and I do have one in mind but I don't know! I don't know how he feels. He probably is just like every male species out there and is just wanting on thing.  Well I don't want that! I want someone to talk to, someone to listen to me, someone who will be there for me no matter what, someone who doesn't care how I look, someone who will come and see me even if I'm extremely sick! But I will find him! I WILL!

 

 

i w y v b

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August 18, 2005
7:01 pm
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[ mood | pensive ]

"you and i, we never had it easy, baby, we had to work so hard and every time it feels like we're gonna make it that's when it falls apart, but i'll take my chances with you"

 

 

Not much has went on! Just school and that's about it! I love it!! Especially second block because of Garrett! Whoo whoo! <3 Hmmm...... I've had homework every single night! Ughh it's killing me! But it happens. I have decided not to go to the fair this year because I don't have no one to go with and I really just don't want to waste my money on it! But anyways.........I really have nothing to update about.  Oh yeah, Nick's mad at me for no reason at all. I mean seriously this time I didn't do anything and it pisses me off more than anything in the entire world when he's mad at me! Gosh! I was having a great day until PACE practice and he got mad. But Garrett did make PACE better. Speaking of Garrett I'm going out with him Saturday for his birthday! I'm excited!!

 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GARRETT!!! I LOVE YOU! *even though its a couple of days early*


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August 12, 2005
6:58 pm
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[ mood | satisfied ]

Wow! I'm utterly amazed with myself! I actually like school! That may change but as of now I love it! It's great! I love my classes, although they will be hard, and I love the people in my classes! French 2, Calculus, and Chemistry are kind of full but my AP History class has 8 people in it, which is awesome! The only bad part about this year is some of the people who aren't there that should be....but it happens! I'm glad I have Calculus with Garrett becuase I LOVE Garrett to death! I've been thinking about the whole baketball situation. I really don't know if I am going to play. I just don't know! But I guess I will have to decide soon because if I don't play I'm getting me a job! I have a couple of dates this weekend which excite me! Haha! I'm ready to be in another relationship! It's been a couple of weeks that's long enough considering he's already moved on!



<3

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Don't cha wish your girlfriend was a freak like me? [
August 7, 2005
3:02 pm
]
[ mood | chipper ]

Well well well!

I've been in a great mood here these past couple of days! I used to be depressed because of Ben but then I realized that I was too good for him anyways. I mean I still want to be friends with him but he never seems to message me back so I guess all that crap that he told me when we broke up was just a bunch of bull. But oh well it happens. I have moved on though. There is this one guy he seems to be pretty good so far so that's good. I guess that's why I'm happy. I can't believe that school starts Thursday. It seems impossible! But I guess I will be alright, although it will be hard adjusting knowing that Heather and Haley won't be there. Oh I have decided that I am going to go to Liberty for college! I'm excited! I can come home on some weekends, so that way I won't get homesick too often. But I am excited to go to college. I know I have two more years but I really want to live out on my own and be independent! I'm just really excited to go to college! I can't wait! I think that this year I'm going to go up there for college for a weekend! But anyways! I'm really tired because I have had a migrane for like two days. It's wearing me out! But I'm going to go clean my room

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